An open letter to my script……
I have been meaning to write for a while. It’s not you….. it’s me!
Please don’t get mad, but I have wanted to tell you something and I have been too scared.
I found out that you have been lying to me…… please don’t try to deny it because you know you have.
Don’t worry I am not angry with you because you don’t know any better. You think you are helping me. But you always want to remind me of everything I have ever done wrong and tell me how to live my life.
For too long you you have told me I wasn’t good enough, not clever enough, that I didn’t fit it, that no one liked me and that I was a fraud.
You don’t stop. Everyday, all day….
- You’re ugly
- You’re fat
- You’re a fraud
- You’re a failure
- You’re a bad mum and wife
- You don’t deserve to be happy
- You will never amount to anything
- You will always be alone
And I believed you! I thought I was broken and needed fixing when all along it wasn’t me…. it was you!
I am tired of the daily battle with you in my head. You might live in my head. But I live in my heart and my heart speaks the truth.
I am not the fraud… you are!
Now I know the truth I am no longer interested in anything you have to say!
I know with absolutely clarity that I am a superhero and have been since the day I was born. Born perfect and with everything I have ever needed. I didn’t need to prove myself to you or anyone else. My purpose in life has and will always be, to be just me! Nothing more, nothing less.
I am everything I would choose to be:
- Worthy of good feelings without reasons
- A superhero
And you are everything I am not!
Now it doesn’t matter what you say to me now because I know!
I know that if I don’t feel good then I listening to you and not me!
So you see it’s not you…. it’s me!
Big love, full hearts and small tummies!
Jill – The Fat Controller
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